Loving Me

I have this uncanny ability to put myself into relationships with "boys" who are more about self sabotage than I am. The lost puppy syndrome, if you will. For months I have tried to come to terms with this unnerving fact, but it wasn't until tonight when I think I have finally had enough of the nauseating ride. It's the hardest thing to do sometimes. Love yourself more than an other person. It's much easier to put others before myself, or at least I have thought that way for a long time. I've been stressing myself out for no reason whatsoever, apparently, as I am the only person who is stressing out. This is not my life. Well, it is my life, but not what I'm stressing out about. I stress out about other peoples problems. It's more fun to try and fix other people than to deal with my own mishappenings. Honestly, I have enough of my own shit I should be worried with. I talk about it all the time. Taking care of me. I talk a lot of shit. I'm done talking for now. Wish me luck. I'm coming up.

Bump in the Road

Things have been going really well for me lately. I'm coming into a good place with work, now already four months into my ten month probation. I've had a couple hic-ups, but nothing to be alarmed about. I've been told once I pass the five month assesment, it's gravy...so I will await the train and line up my mased potatoes. The Unite Way campaign is under way, ans as I was asked to join the team, that means I will get lots of days off work to do fun stuff like sell pizza and have BBQ's...and still get paid for it.

That sums up work in less than 100 words.

The other aspects of my life are suffering slightly. I haven't been to the dojo to train in more months than I like to count. I haven't seen my family in a while and had to miss Kayla's third birthday party, which really sucked. I've manged to spend some time with friends, so that's good.

You know, I had tons to talk about a little while ago, but the flow has come to a hault. Guess I'll have to share another time.

Fire Dragon

I think this fits me to a "T"....

People love Dragons so much because they are generous, charismatic, irresistible, and so brave that standing beside them banishes fear. They generate excitement and turn heads anywhere they go. They are free-spirited and impulsive and can help others achieve their dreams. Others love to be around Dragons because they have a way of making people feel better. Dragons are quick to fall in love, but do not surrender their independence easily leaving most of them to live life by themselves. Yet, a smart, witty, and funny companion may intrigue the Dragon long enough to make him want to get married. And once the Dragon becomes committed, he/she is unlikely to ever leave.